before && in progress

For the life of me I don’t know why this post looks like this. I had to use tinypic to upload these pixcutres and I guess I just did it wrong. I’m basically html slow so forgive me. but here are the
befores (July/August)
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and this was today:

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so the pants aren’t doing me any favors because obvs. they’re too big. && yes i’m wearing moccasins because i’m comfy like that. I’m going to purchase spanx eventually (side boob is getting on my friggin nerves). I totally have a long way to go but as you can see i’m on the right track.
Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving. Now for my fave holiday: BLACK FRIDAY. Sucks I have to work 4pm to 11pm but i’m sure it’ll go quick.

day 21

Day 21
A photo of something that makes you happy
Well, as of late, my electronic devices are making me happy: my sexy kindle
my new little netbook which I am returning the day o fnext paycheck so I can get a real laptop and my make up!:

kinda feeling blah to catch up on lost posts so until later

days 18 and 19

Day 18 Something you crave
I bet you think a CFC would say something White Chocolate Caramel Macadamia nut cheese cake from the Cheese Cake Factory, huh? WRONG! Although that is crazy delicious.
No, What I crave is something a little different but just as decadent as that gorgeous piece of cheesecake.
I crave true love and companionship. I crave it so bad sometimes it hurts to look at happy couples. I crave it so bad that when I see bitchy girlfriends being rude to their amazing boyfriends I feel physically nauseous. Now, my desire to have this affection is not to be confused with me willing to settle for any man that comes knocking. Not the case see this blog postfor proof. I want and crave true companionship- a true equal that can handle my heart with care and not leave me wanting anyone but them. I want humor. I want and CRAVE love. A man to enhance me and just be a great friend. I know I sound like a broken record but for a girl that has never had any of that who is on the precious of her 23rd birthday? It makes a lot of sense to want that fully. More than anything. Well, I want my own self actualization of course but I crave this true love and companionship. Basically positive attention from the male gender would be nice.What I crave is something real and honest. There was this guy that had such promise but his lack of WILL and real charm sealed the deal on our non relationship. His Lack of EFFORT was a real ball buster for me. I may be a fat chick but I am a chick. With the realest, deepest, most honest feelings you’ll ever come across. Too soul-baring? maybe. But I want a man who can handle that. Plus I don’t really want like a chubby chaser or a fat girl aficionado I want a guy who loves me. For ME. For whatever I have to offer. I may be ” asking for the impossible but as my idol Audrey Hepburn says;; “Nothing is impossible, the world itself says I’m possible.” I choose the path of hope. I hope that someday my prince will come. I am not begging. I am not running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I am so not being the woe is me bitch either because I know how ATTRACTIVE that can be with men. *rolls eyes* I am going better in all of those senses. Sure,, I can come across extra sometimes but I am a little extra. In size and in personality. I am ME. ME. I sometimes want to be larger than life and seize the day and get my adventures done. God, I crave adventure. Not the oh man I may totally get arrested kind. But I want to enjoy being alive. Isn’t the world ending in two years? I need to get my life on. And I am doing it big!
Day 19 another pic of yourself…

It was from two years ago I didn’t feel like taking a picture today because it is a rainy poopie day and I don’t feel like doing anything and that includes putting my face on lol so there. TANOLICIOUS. I love being tan but I have only faked n baked twice in my life it didn’t do shit for me. I just get nice and tan quick ’cause I’m part Rican. So I started this post heavy(pun intended!) and ended light! lol

days 16 and 17

Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.
Golly, I am a celeb slore I really don’t know my ONLY celebrity crush. I am very keen on Johnny Depp- he’s number one.

Then Jesse Williams:

Then my sports celeb crush Jayson Werth.


Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.
I don’t have a singular family photo that isn’t from before we were kids so here are my parents together:

My bro, chill ladies he’s only fifteen
and the sisters and me:

and yes that is my immediate family. Huge family. Huge mouths. Huge attitudes. lol
omg forgot my sister Katie! lol so many I forget /edit

new postage stamps days 11 and 12

So… Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.
What’s in my make up bad was fun:

the whole shabang( my travelling make up bag i take EVERYWHERE)

Zee Shadows they cost BUCK each killa

Sephora Concealers. That pen yo! Is the ish one side hides the pimples and fights them!

mascaras. yes. one has the lash blast top but i like that brush better. PS AVON ROCKS!

MY PURPLES LINER AND and dust for zee eyes

and a picture of my town?

the only TOWNIE part

thats a place I chill sometimes because of the variance of bars.
but this is my real TOWN my real neighborhood from my childhood. :

so my day was sucky but this was fun. I don’t want to get into the suckdom just a bunch of people yelled at me through the phone and made me feel inferior. Oh wait! I just got into it. haha

Days 9 and 10

A picture of the last thing you bought:
Well, the last thing I bought was groceries. So the last cool thing I bought was:

I got these at Dots for one effing dollar. I love em.
A picture of my favorite place to eat:

Borders Cafe. WELL, for long it’s Jose Border’s Cafe. It is sooo yummy. Tex mex deliciousness with amazing margaritas. This is a pic of B3K. Britney,Brandy,Brandi, and me Krystal. Get it? LoL. I miss these chicas bad. Such a good time!
Now back to my netflix a thon. I have been soo flupping sick these past few days. I have a severe sinus infection so I am on an antibiotic and various cold medicines. I have been drinking lots of tea and water and french onion soup to stay hydrated. The only thing that kills me is I had to call out of work. I had no voice and my job is talking on the phone all day. Yeah, no bueno. What skins my ass is I paid 50 bucks for my co-pay at a medical aid unit instead of going to my PCP because I was afraid I wouldn’t get an appointment I didn’t know it was considered like an er visit. AY YI YI. But I do have health insurance I can’t complain too much because for a year I didn’t and lots of people still don’t. OKay, Pushing Daisies here I come!