There’ll be no sad tomorrow

So, after my last blog, I became REALLY sick. This insane sinus infection full of coughs, fevers, and sniffles. It sucked BALLS. I am still congested and not feeling one hundred percent but let me tell you it was an intense week. During this same week Aunt Flow came to visit as well. Can you say FFFUUUCCCKKK? I sho can. FUCK. lol. It was awful. Mixed this illness and working overnight I didn’t get much done. At all. No gym. No writing down what I ate. NOTHING. I didn’t get weighed either I slept right through it. So somethings gotta give. I HAVE to find another job. I am searching in fervor. What I NEED to do is print out a bunch of resumes and go to doctors offices and just hand out my resume. This internet ish maybe what we do in this day and age but I am tired of rejection emails. I need to do what I studied for! I wanna go back to school and become an RN and take writing classes on the side but how am I going to pay for classes when I don’t make enough right now? I already got a loan last year for 11,000 through my mom and that is being deferred because of her disability but I can’t get lucky enough to do that for Del Tech( a technical college). I digress. I am trying to be less complainy and less whinny but I had to get that out quickly. I want to enjoy my life and surround myself with positivity.

I had last night and today. I went to my bff’s apartment and stayed over. We attempted to put a puzzle together, watched How I met your Mother and 30 Rock, and just plain enjoyed each others company.

I had missed her soo much. She even bought me an awesome fleece blanket with this image:

I know Johnny Depp looks like a furreak but that’s his charm. Plus he’s my el numero celeb crush. I also love Alice in Wonderland so it’s a win win. But like I said about positivity. I am not going to run away from problems or cut out my friends if they’re having a rough day but I am going to clip the people or things that bring me down.. WAY down. Not specifics or anything I am just going to become more aware of what’s going down and do what I have to do to center myself. I want to mature and do it right. I NEED to grow up and enjoy life because who knows when its our last day on this earth? I just hope that I find love before it happens. I am not searching for anyone, hoping he’ll find me, but I am open to love. WIDE open, ha ha. I know I mention my singleness a lot but it’s one of those SOMETHING missings in my life. I hang out with Amber, my bff, at her place and she lives with her boyfriend. So I am always the third wheel. I would love to have a partner in this to bring over so it’d be like a couples date thing as well as chilling with my bff. I want a male counterpart to escape all this femminine shit. Do you know what I mean? Like even a male friend to just shoot the shit with I wouldn’t mind. Well, we all know what would happen there; we’d be friends, I’d start to like him, and he wouldn’t like me in that way which would end our friendship due to uber weirdness. Yeah, I have had it happen a few times during my younger years. I feel as though I am WAY more mature in that aspect. I think I can handle a guy just being my friend and not being any of my friend’s boyfriends. A dude who is just a pal. Maybe a drinking buddy lol. Who knows?

Let’s get off that subject though.

Next time I blog I should have a weight update. It may be another pound or two gain because of this week but I promise not to freak out. I have to not quit either. Missing weeks at weight watchers is extremely detrimental to this. I need to go every week. I also need to stop working overnight because my sleep schedule is all jacked up and I am eating at odd times and not getting excercise in. Until later ❀

&& the worst part is before its get any better we’re headed for a cliff

It’s been a low week. My christmas was very short due to my working at 3:30 pm until 11:30. Then, on Sunday, my dog Hershey ran away. There’s been issues with that damn dog. He just loves to run!

I can’t call the spca because my lame ass neighbor had previously called them and they said if he runs out again we have to pay a 500 dollar fine. We don’t have 500 bucks. I sure as hell don’t have it. I make like 160 a week and i got my phone bill and some other expenses like this 340 xray bill i haven’t paid since april and they’re calling me now.. YIKES It’s terrible. So I hope a family found him and see my ad on craigs list. I’m devastated. Even though he was a pain in the ass that was my favorite dog. He was my bear. My Hershman. But he got out of the fenced in yard because some nimrod left the gate partially ajar. It’s Wednesday now so my hope is minimal for his return. It’s not only this. I think because of my working overnight I have started to feel really depressed lately. Like I’m sleeping my life away and missing everything. That && not having a car! I missed my friend’s 21st birthday last night bc of it. I wonder if they even missed me. I’ve known her since I was 12, we were next door neighbors for like 8 years, and she’s one of the beautiful people if you catch my drift. But she’s real. All the trouble I’ve ever gotten into was with her haha. See, my low feelings? The only thing I’m excited for is New Years eve. Originally, I was supposed to work overnight that night! Ring in new years at Pathmark? GTFOH! What I ended up doing was writing a letter to my supervisor stating that I have seniority over so and so so I really don’t believe it’s fair I’m working. Let’s just say I don’t have many hours this week but it’s all good because I have off new years eve! New Years Day, if they’re open, my fat ass is going to weight watchers! Hopefully that’ll bring my sprits back up doing something healthy and good for myself.
Did I mention I’ve decided to move to Tennessee? Yeah,my two friends Nick and Dana are moving down there in July because Nick goes to the University of Tennessee and he has three more years to go. They’re a couple and wanna be together. Delaware and Tennessee is like 5 hours apart driving so you know long distance relationships are hard as eff. The place they’re getting is a two bedroom apartment for 700 bucks a month. This includes hot water, cable, and heat. You cannot get an efficiency for that much here in DE! Plus, I can’t find a job to save my life around here in medical assisting and there are tons down there in Knoxville. I want a change of pace. I want to meet new people. I wanna meet a southern gentleman! haha. So hopefully it all works out and I won’t end up talking out my ass about all that. Hopefully 2010 brings about new awesomeness to my drab life. 2009 was filled with school and work so I did shit! The coolest thing I did was meet third eye blind.
ahhh i was starstruck!
me n my friend amber before meeting them. That ish is supposed to be my best friend… I haven’t heard from her in like two weeks. She lives with her boyfriend. ‘Nuff said.

autographs! yes!
That was boss. That and graduating and passing medical assisting schoolage! I wanna keep going for nursing and start taking some writing classes on the side. I miss my creative spark. I used to write all the time. I’m letting the world get to me. BAH! I need to keep this lyric by Fall Out Boy in mind:

You can only blame your problems on the world for so long before it all becomes the same old song

They’re so right. Positivity is what I am bringing into the new year. I think its because last NYE I spent it at swordsman’s house. Locking lips with someone you don’t really like all the much but were doing it because aren’t you supposed to hook up at new years is bad juju. Yeah bad ass run on sentence fo sho. So this new years eve will be spent will friends. Getting crunk of course but… it is new years! ❀

and the verdict is…


I passed!!!! yay yay yay yay yay yay!! i mean i got a 76 so im pissed at that i thought i maybe missed 10 answers but whatevs im certified now. A Nationally Certified Medical Assistant, sounds sexy right? When I sign my name I can put CMA after it like doctors put MD and nurses RN say werd! LoL. thanks for all the luck and love guys!