sometimes a woman needs to get perspective. So that’s what I’m doing today; getting perspective. I am heading to the beach for a few hours. I need a reminder that there is a whole big world out there and the shitty feelings i’m feeling right now are pretty much lame compared to the big picture. I am so sick of getting down when I get rejected . I am so sick of it. skinny people get rejected all the time. While it is true that the main issue men have with me is committing to a relationship with a woman who is bigger I should just brush them off as cowards. Cowards because they lie. They’ll tell me one thing… and then do another. I don’t want the bull shit. I just wish I could just shut off the emotions I have. i wish i Could all my friggin heart. Since that’s not happening any time soon i’m going to the each today. I am going to shut my eyes and dig my toes in the sand.