Cupid draw back your bow and your let your arrow flow


 

My worst fear is being too comfortable in the here and now. TO just settle. . Shoot me if I ever say “yup, this is as good as it’s gonna get.” . I will always want more and strive to be better. Always. Is that wrong of me?I’m not saying I won’t be happy til I have a lambo. None of that.

I’m looking into going back to school. Probably online classse. I so want to get my writing career underway. I want to finish my novels ( I have two started at the same time. Don’t judge me) I want to follow my dreams and I fear a lot of people are secretly judging me for not staying still. I will never sit still. My head will always be filled with draems and sooner or later I will get more dreams crossed off my list as they will be completed.  I really am finding inner strength. My surgery has been my catalyst. It has let me know what I really want in life and how I can’t keep thinking; oh. I have tomorrow. Shit is never guaranteed. I wish I could be more risky with my heart though. To openly ASK someone I’m interested in on a date or if I find a dude attractive chat him up. That is something I definitely need to work on. Either that or pay for match.com. Yeah. I did the free trial. What up.  I know i’m not a 100% okay but I thank those of you who have continued to help me be okay. Those who are genuinely happy for my successes and don’t harbor jealousy towards me. It’s not worth it.  I want to move away from Delaware and start a new. Eventually. I want to become fluent in Spanish and I’m working on it thanks to bykli and my mom. Maybe i’ll take classes in that? I want to be someone inspiring. I want people to ask me for advice. That means getting my ass out of debt. I love my readers and the people who comment on my stuff.  I just want to hug each and every one of you.



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One thought on “Cupid draw back your bow and your let your arrow flow

  1. That’s awesome chicky. I’ve been wanting to go back to school for awhile as well. I keep going back and forth between two different things – photography, or meteorology, but they can actually both tie into each other, so I could have the best of both worlds.

    I’m so happy for you, and your achievements. ❤

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